"You alright there?"

At the end of the day I thought, I can't

I can't be in the building all by myself

I need air, I need to clear my mind

So I went out, sat by the river

I fiddled with my phone

I remembered my sister asking me to call one of my aunt last year when we had that false alarm

Now that the alarm was for real

I don't know how I'd handle it

But I don't feel like it'll be just if I don't do it, considering I was never there at the end of it...

So I rang her

I tried to hold myself but I broke down eventually

I hung up

I tried holding it in

But I couldn't

So I sat by the river and cried

I saw it coming

No, I was rather hoping for it to come

For it to end

And ease her pain

I thought probably it'll be good for the end to come without me there

The moment I heard she was bedridden, my head hung low

She had always been a strong woman, even in her frail form

The image was too much for me

So I prayed for God to ease her pain

Now it passed

I thought of the thought

And thought how weak, how selfish I was

And I cried

I cried thinking of her

And of everyone else, our family

I heard a lady asked me if I was alright

I felt her hand stroking my back, trying to calm me down

I told her what happened

And she listened, empathising, relating to how too had lost her grandmother once

She stayed for a bit until I calmed down

I thanked her and stayed a bit before making my way back

Here's to my grandma

That little iron lady who doesn't take shit from no one

But so many revered her

Down to the 5th generation

And across to the others